LOS ANGELES — Gay adult performer Jessie Colter has disclosed a diagnosis of brain cancer on his social media channels. He received the news earlier this year, he said, on Valentine's Day.
"Obviously I was stunned, but there were already so many negative things happening in my life at the same time that I couldn’t deal with talking to anyone about this right away," he said. "The reason I waited this long was because, between then and now, things were either really good or really bad in my life, and I didn’t want to make things worse or diminish the good times. What I learned from all this is that there is never a good time."
The remainder of his statement reads as follows:
I understand that a lot of you are going to reach out to try and help me, or tell me that there’s some sort of treatment available, but like I said before, I kindly ask that you don’t.
Please don’t be sad or upset for me. I’ve already made peace with this. What I need now more [than] tears and sympathy is smiles and happiness. What I need now is feeling good and feeling loved, laughing and spending time with people who I care about.
I need to make every day count, because it is undetermined exactly how much time I have left. I could be around for a couple of years or [a] couple of decades, but I need to be realistic. I’ve lived an incredible life, a life most people dream of having, and for that I am very fortunate and grateful.
But my life isn’t over yet. There’s still time to make new memories. So even though yesterday was my 38th birthday, I plan on having more birthdays to celebrate as well as other joyous occasions that I very much look forward to.
Just know that I am okay. I am not scared. I am not sad. I’m just doing my best with what I’ve got left. That’s all we can do. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I love you all.
Colter's acclaimed career in all-male adult stretches back more than a decade with a filmography that includes Hot House Video, Icon Male, Kink.com, Lucas Entertainment, Men.com, TitanMen and Raging Stallion Studios, among others.
Find him on Twitter and Instagram.
Images source: Falcon Studios (left); Colter Instagram (right)