Karma Rx is the cure to all of the bullshit, all of the fakeness and all of the drama. She is the balance. And why? She has reaped the whirlwind and survived. Now, she is anarchy made flesh. And yet, chaos is a ladder.
Rung by rung, she has climbed to incredible fucking heights. From her struggles on the streets as a homeless teenager, battling meth addiction, hunger pangs and the bitter cold, to her rapid ascent into true adult stardom, Rx is a goddamn warrior. Hell, she even has the Smith & Wesson revolver, LWRC rifle and Sig Sauer pistol to back up her badass personality. Don’t tread on this rattlesnake!
Neither one of my parents judges me … they’re happy that I’ve got a job and I’m paying my taxes and I just bought a house.
Fuck her roughly or love her softly, she is all about authenticity, whether shooting for a mega MindGeek brand or banging in the local Del Taco bathroom for her Snapchat. And speaking of social media-driven revenue streams, she was already running her own premium company — Sic Fuc Models — helping stars monetize such content, before the indie revolution of clips and camming truly reached a fever pitch.
Rocking over 100 scene credits for top-tier studios, 300K-plus Twitter followers, more than 1.6 million fans on Instagram and top 10 ranking on global powerhouse Pornhub, Rx has undeniably established herself as a serious player within a very short timeframe. Is it any wonder she was crowned 2019 XBIZ Best New Starlet?
With the venerable Mark Schechter of ATMLA as her devoted agent, that bankable traffic is ready to be booked 24/7. And since her fateful victory in January at XBIZ L.A., she has not slowed down one bit. If anything, she is raising hell with greater passion than ever, accelerating over obstacles and challenges to get majorly airborne.
Then, beyond her sex appeal, this self-avowed nihilist and anarchist is a keenly intelligent iconoclast. Come at her with “bad boy” outlaw antics or self-satisfied Ivy League tomfoolery, politically correct censorship or finger-wagging moral tyranny, and Rx will cut a fool down to size like a machete through dense foliage.
After all, she is a deeply complex, yet supremely grounded person. She loves filming anal with Vivaldi as the background music almost as much as watching Mads Mikkelsen vivisect rude people on “Hannibal.” Savagery is best served with deadly grace. She understands that evil worthy of idolatry is wrought from a rich tapestry of inner fullness, not the cocksure swaggering of attention-starved simpletons masquerading as their betters. Trust an honest villain, above all.
But, enough of this bluster and babble. Take a walk on the wild side, through the gilded lights of skyrocketing fortune and fame, into the dumpster behind a Chinese restaurant and through the harrowing struggles of meth addiction, in this exclusive interview.
XBIZ: Tell us about life before you started doing adult. Where’d you grow up?
Rx: I grew up in “Porn Valley.”
XBIZ: Born and raised?
Rx: Born and raised. It makes sense why I ended up here. Right before porn, I had a premium Snapchat. And I made clips — like on ManyVids and such.
XBIZ: When was that, roughly?
Rx: 2015 to 2017. Right before that, I was managing a vape and tattoo shop.
XBIZ: For how long?
Rx: A few years. They blended together.
XBIZ: What kind of stuff did you learn there?
Rx: Customer service, which is important in all lines of work. And I think it’s part of why I do well in porn, because I know how to be in a good mood when I’m not in a good mood — which is a lesson that a lot of performers never learn. But it’s a valuable thing to have on set, to know how to be professional no matter what the fuck you feel like on the inside. Other than that, I learned a bunch of shit about vaping — and I fucking hate vaping. I smoke cigarettes. But before that, I did manual labor jobs. And I cleaned houses.
XBIZ: Before the vape and the tattoo shop?
Rx: Yeah. And that was fun.
XBIZ: What kind of manual labor did you do?
Rx: I used to go to Labor Ready, which is a call center for labor jobs. So you gotta show up at 5 a.m., and they make you do whatever.
XBIZ: Zip around town.
Rx: Yeah, doing whatever kind of bullshit. I’m not very skilled at anything; so I ended up digging ditches and shit. I dug ditches in Sun Valley, or picked up some trash and whatever. And they’ll pay you minimum wage, which is cool. If you don’t have any skills, there’s work; people just don’t want to go there at 5 a.m. and hope.
XBIZ: Because they think society owes them or whatever?
Rx: Yeah, everybody thinks that society owes them. And I’ve never suffered from that, thankfully.
XBIZ: The world doesn’t owe anyone a thing.
Rx: Nope, the world doesn’t owe you a fucking thing.
XBIZ: Even your life, haha.
Rx: Yeah, everything we get has a price. But I’m glad that I did all of that stuff, cleaning houses and the like. I remember saving a ton of money and I got all these tattoos when I was like 18.
XBIZ: The majority of them?
RX: Yeah, I was making like $120 a week. And my rent was $900 or some shit.
XBIZ: How’d you get the tattoos with that kind of budget?
Rx: Exactly. I fucking somehow managed to save. I know how to save money. So it’s hard for me when these girls are like, “Oh, but, my rent’s high, and I don’t make enough money.” OK, if you were capable of making $1,000 in a day, you should be able to save. And I still got tattooed. I used to recycle cans; like when I was homeless and had drug troubles, I did the same thing. I used to say that I did more for the environment than Al Gore. I’d be in the dumpster all day long getting cans. But it taught me how to work.
XBIZ: What period were you homeless and dealing with drug use?
Rx: Let’s see, I got clean in 2012 — the beginning of 2012. I first started using in 2007. My clean date was January 8 of 2012, which I sustained until this year, when I slipped up a few months back for the first time in seven years.
XBIZ: So, that was before you were doing the manual labor and the tattoos and the vape?
Rx: Yeah, some of the manual labor stuff was in 2011, maybe. I was 18 for the last year I was getting high, and was working as much as possible with recycling. I was going to community college, homeless as fuck, and it was embarrassing: I’d go to class, try to pull out my books — and socks and shit would come out. Everybody’d be looking at me like I’m crazy. I never graduated from college, but I went for a semester or two. I took criminal justice because I was doing crimes. I wanted to know what the other side was up to. But yeah, that’s what I did before porn: lots of drugs and weird shit.
XBIZ: It’s amazing you stayed on the wagon so long.
Rx: It is amazing. There’s a lot of drugs in porn, but it’s not really the same kind. It’s not the same kind of drug addict that I grew up with.
XBIZ: How is that?
Rx: It’s like, this rich person cocaine thing that doesn’t even tempt me. When I go see people shooting crystal meth that makes me want to get high. But I don’t want to do a little bit of coke and feel nothing for 20 minutes. That doesn’t appeal to me.
I didn’t get clean because there are no more drugs in the world anymore; I got clean because I don’t want to do them. And whenever I’m clean, I never want to hide from the world. I think that’s important. I think that’s why I can work in porn around drugs: I know that they’re there. I could do them if I wanted to. Some people get clean and live in a little box with only clean people, and all their friends are clean.
They’re afraid to do anything, and I don’t want to fucking live that way. I want to be able to do what the fuck I want. And I don’t do drugs because I choose not to do them. Nobody just accidently fucking stumbles on putting a needle in their arm. You have to make a conscious choice, and so far, I have been able to avoid making that choice for the most part, thank God.
XBIZ: What inspired you to stop?
Rx: The cold.
XBIZ: You mean cold temperatures?
Rx: The temperatures. I was homeless, and it’s funny … because I’ve been through some horrible shit, I was homeless from age 15 to 19 as a girl. So you have “victim” tattooed on your forehead at that point. Nobody gives a fuck about you and a lot of people took advantage of that.
But of all the crazy shit that happened, it was the cold that got me clean. I first got clean for that seven-year period, because it was fucking freezing. I was homeless out here in L.A., staying at Burbank and Balboa. I had a tent for a minute, and then that fell through. So I went down to Reseda Boulevard, and I was living behind the AAA. And it was just so fucking cold.
L.A.’s the best place to be homeless if you’ve got to be homeless, except that we don’t have shelters. And they won’t open shelters in the county. I don’t know if this is still true, but back then, what I heard that was that they wouldn’t open shelters unless it was below freezing. So it was like 34 degrees.
And when it’s raining, your body loses temperature, I think, 30 percent faster than usual. So you’re sitting there, and it’s a cold that most people can’t imagine. I don’t think most people have ever been that cold, ‘cause you usually have a way to get out of it. And it felt like it was cold forever. We would just sit there, and the night would just extend forever. You would get this internal cold and you’re like, “Fuck this.” So that was what got me clean. I was over it.
XBIZ: Because you were so fucking cold.
Rx: Yeah, and I wanted to get clean maybe a year after I started. And it was just difficult to do, especially homeless. It’s hard to get off the streets.
XBIZ: When you started the hard stuff, was it mainly meth?
Rx: Just meth. I tried some other bullshit.
XBIZ: But you didn’t need anything else.
Rx: Meth was the love of my life.
XBIZ: Do mainstream representations of it, like “Breaking Bad,” seem accurate?
Rx: Yeah, it’s sort of accurate. Parts of it are. I like how they show tweakers. But yeah, I’d been wanting to get clean. I just needed an opportunity. So I got disability pay and I got off the street. And I paid that money back. But trying to get disability when you’re homeless is also difficult because they make you jump through a lot of hoops.
So I’m like, walking to all these fucking appointments all over the Valley, trying to come up with all the paperwork and get a Social Security card and do all this shit. But they gave it to me, and I got clean a week after I got off the street. And I was clean ever since for seven years. You can’t get clean while homeless.
People love to yell at homeless people, “Get a job,” but it’s difficult without an address or a shower. And if you’re sleeping on concrete, I’m sorry, but you’re going to be fucked up doing it. I could talk about drugs all day.
I think that most people in porn have stories that they want to tell. We don’t end up here by accident. I mean, I consider myself well-adjusted. There’s also the stigma that people in porn are fucked up and are victims. I’m absolutely not a victim. I’ve been through shit. I’ve learned how to not be a victim really well. But I think that a lot of it — like, it takes a certain kind of person or mind state to be able to do porn and not be affected by it in a negative way. And my mother told me a couple of months ago, “You know, if anybody’s kind of built to do porn, it’s you.”
XBIZ: So she knows all about it then?
Rx: Oh, yeah, she knows. She was watching the award shows. She’s happy. Neither one of my parents judges me. But after all the other shit, they’re happy that I’ve got a job and I’m paying my taxes and I just bought a house. They’re fucking proud of me. The non-fans on Twitter are like, “Are you parents proud of you?” And I’m like, “Yeah, they actually are. Are your parents proud that they raised a fucking douchebag who talks shit to porn stars on the Internet?” Jesus.
XBIZ: So after doing the vape and smoke shop a couple of years after you got clean, tell us how you built such a large following on social media before even getting into the adult biz.
Rx: I got into social media marketing and ended up, within maybe six months, with a premium Snapchat. Everyone on Instagram was like, “Make a premium Snapchat!” and I didn’t even know what Snapchat was. But I did it, and I remember that the first day that I started the premium, I made $3,500 — which was more money than I’d ever had in my life. And I was like, “Oh, well, I do this now.” And I’ve been doing it ever since.
I don’t make $3,500 every day. But that was a huge different from minimum wage money. And when I was working at the tattoo and vape shop, I was working 90 hours a week, getting paid for 40. I’ve always worked my ass off for not quite enough money. So that much money was like, “Oh, fuck.” I realized that I could make whatever I wanted and that I could live however I wanted and that I wasn’t stuck being this homeless chick — or this bottom feeder. I don’t have to be that. And there are options; it’s just whether or not I want to take those options — and I want to fucking take them all!
XBIZ: For sure. Why the fuck not?
Rx: And for me, it was easy with porn or any other adult work, because I didn’t have to give up any social standing. I didn’t have any. I’d been a drug addict since I was a kid, and I was dirt poor before that. So I’ve been eating trash since I was little. I did a video recently of me eating dog food, and it went all viral.
XBIZ: What brand was it?
Rx: It was good. It was like some Rachael Ray fucking non-GMO shit.
XBIZ: Was it the dry shit?
Rx: It was dry. Me and Bruno Dickemz made this video, and it went all viral. He also pissed in my mouth. People were so shocked that I ate dog food, but nobody was shocked about the piss. I’m like, “How bougie are you? You never ate dog food growing up? I ate dog food my whole life. When we didn’t have food, I ate the dog food. Like, what is that so shocking?” And then I realized that not everybody lived how I lived. I ate dumpster Chinese food for years too.
XBIZ: From a Chinese place?
Rx: Yeah, ‘cause it’s the cleanest ‘cause they come in those Styrofoam things, and people usually close them to put them in the trash can.
XBIZ: Was this a proper Chinese restaurant, or like Panda Express?
Rx: Like Panda. There was this one place on Parthenia and Corbin — I think it’s still there — called Panda Chinese Fast Food. And they would bring out the trash at 9. We would all be there at 9:05, and the food would still be warm. So, we’d just open all the trays and combine and consolidate.
XBIZ: Did they chase you away or did they know you were there?
Rx: Oh, they didn’t give a fuck — which was cool. We were hungry. We didn’t make a mess; we would put everything back in the dumpsters. Yeah, so going back to the dog food, everyone was like, “You’re fucking crazy.” It was funny. The other day I was watching all these fucking videos of girls eating dog food and they’re feeding them nasty-ass Pedigree. I’m like, “At least give them the good shit.”
XBIZ: What’s better than Pedigree?
Rx: Oh, everything. Their dog food sucks.
XBIZ: Haha. OK, so before the dog food video hijinks and adult stardom, what was your strategy for building a social media following?
Rx: I had a website called Sic Fuc Models. There’s this chick, Viking Barbie, and her husband had a Snap company — and I had a Snap company. We were the industry; we were the Snap industry. We fucking started that shit.
I had a bunch of girls working for me and we had this little Snap empire, but it was a pain in the ass. And I made more money than I’d ever made in my life when I was doing that. I took a pretty big pay cut to do porn, but the amount of work that went with it was insane. I personally owned the business and I didn’t know how to automate anything. FanCentro has everything automated now.
But I was personally adding everything to all these girls’ accounts and dealing with chargebacks and e-mails and everyone’s fucking bullshit. I spent all my money on Amazon because I didn’t have time to go to a fucking store. I didn’t see a human in a year. It was too much. I’d never been so miserable in my life and I realized money isn’t everything.
XBIZ: Of course not.
Rx: So porn, for me, was this balance between quality of life and income. I can go to work, make good money, go home and not fucking think about it. If I want to do Snapchat, I can — or I can fucking not. But I have a hard time when people tell me what to do. This industry’s kind of perfect for me because I can make as much money or as little money as I want, and work as much or as little as I want if I’m willing to hustle for it.
XBIZ: If there was ever a time that performers had more sway…
Rx: It’s right now. There’s so many options. And I like performing. I like doing real scenes. But it’s like — I just moved, so I’ve spent most of my money on new bottles and new furniture. I’m about to have to pay taxes. So if I had to just rely on the January or February bookings — which are shit because nobody is booking in January and February — I’d be fucked. So thank God I can take the bookings and also do all the content stuff. Otherwise, I’d be totally fucking broke right now.
XBIZ: So, at the height of your pre-shoot days, you were running this platform for the girls. And when you decided to get into porn performing, how did that transition come about? How old were you?
Rx: I just turned 26 on January 21 and came into the shooting side of the industry about a year-and-a-half ago.
XBIZ: How exactly did you make that first leap?
Rx: Well, Chris King shot my wedding, and my ex-husband’s ex-wife did porn — so, he knew Chris King and was like, “Oh, he’s a great photographer.” So I already knew Chris and when my marriage didn’t work out, he introduced me to Mark Schecter, which is how ATMLA became my agency.
XBIZ: So you ended up in really good hands, really quick?
Rx: Yeah. And I got into this MindGeek deal immediately for my first boy/girl because I already had a social media following.
XBIZ: When was that?
Rx: September of 2017.
XBIZ: What was the deal, if you’re allowed to talk about it?
Rx: Basically, they gave me my first five boy/girl scenes and initially I was under contract for 60 days. They ended up eventually shooting my first 12 scenes. I think that having a social media following helped me in the beginning, because they were like, “Even if she’s a shit performer, somebody’s going to pay to see it.” And it grew quickly. I think that’s important, because I see some girls go in there, and they’re beautiful and they’re great performers — and nobody notices them because you don’t exist without social media. Which sucks, but you can be very average and have a good social media following. People are like, “You’re hot; so you get all this extra following.” And I’m like, “No, motherfucker, I was homeless a few years ago. I paid to be hot.” The only thing attractive about me that I didn’t have to buy is my eyeballs. I have fillers under my cheeks, under my eyes and under my lips.
XBIZ: Very nicely done, I can’t really tell.
Rx: Thank you. I’ll tell my doctor you said that. I had a tweaker face. Drugs affected me real bad. Even when I put on weight, I still had that sunken skeletal face … that fucking tweaker death face. And I’ve paid for tits. I’ve had more work done than a lot of girls. My nails are fake. My fucking tan’s fake. It’s all fake. But I’m working in the industry of looks, and so, it’s worth it to purchase better looks.
If I was just an average civilian, I don’t know if I would have got all this stuff done. And I think that I’m attractive no matter what. But no part of this is just “looks.” I’ve worked my fucking ass off, and I still work my ass off. And I invest in myself, literally — like, my tits — to be more profitable in the industry. If I looked young, I wouldn’t have gotten my tits done. But I’ve never looked young. I went from 12 to 40 in a year. So the tits didn’t hurt.
XBIZ: So when you first started with Mark Schecter, were the shoots kind of here and there? Or did word get out fast?
Rx: It was constant from the beginning. I’m really grateful for the kinds of opportunities I was given in this industry. From Day One, everybody fucking gave me a shot. I feel like a lot of it, in the beginning, had to do with that customer service thing that we were talking about. I might not have known how to ride a dick or open for a camera really well in the beginning, but I’d show up on time and bring food and help move couches and not be a fucking princess and be nice to everybody. I think that’s important because realistically, this is a people business.
XBIZ: Absolutely.
Rx: And people want to have a good day. People don’t want to be on set with a fucking cunt. So I figured, “OK, if I could just be cool” — and I figured out how rare that is.
XBIZ: Yeah, it is very rare.
Rx: It really made me stand out a lot, I believe. Just being willing to help move furniture. Small things. I remember the first day I was on a shoot, I figured the director would like a hot dog or some shit. And he was like, “You know, in 25 years, no model has ever bought me anything.” And I was like, “Goddamn.” It was a hot dog, and it was like seven bucks.
XBIZ: The rest is history.
Rx: Yeah, ‘cause all the girls are blowing directors. And here, I’m buying a hot dog. But I’ve never blown a director, and I work almost every day. So if you want to fuck directors, that’s cool; do it. Everybody likes pussy. But it’s not necessary. It shouldn’t be, and it isn’t. I’m so bad at relationship-ing and I kind of feel like it’s better for me to not muddy those waters up because I will break hearts — unintentionally. I’d rather just keep everything professional.
XBIZ: Of course!
Rx: Because, I suck at human feelings. And I get such a huge kick out of playing with them, because they’re so malleable.
XBIZ: So in a year and a half, you said you did like 100-plus scenes that have come out.
Rx: Yeah.
XBIZ: And you have a bunch more that are coming out.
Rx: Yeah.
XBIZ: What are some of the studios you enjoy performing for the most?
Rx: I really like everybody that I’ve worked with, genuinely.
XBIZ: Do you tend to gravitate toward gonzo?
Rx: I like gonzo ‘cause I get booked for it a lot. I don’t consider myself a very good actress. When I’m given certain kinds of roles, I can act really well. But being a good actress means that I could play the other roles that I don’t understand as well, and I’m not good at that. Tapping into a victim role is hard for me — like, real hard, and it comes off bullshit-y. In BDSM scenes, whenever they want me to pretend I’m not enjoying it, or that I’m in real pain, that’s hard for me. I don’t like to lie. They’re like, “Can you stop smiling?” And I’m like, “Book somebody else. I like being fucking punched in the head.”
XBIZ: So if you had your druthers, you like the rougher stuff?
Rx: I like a lot of things. I really kind of go towards what happens naturally. Like, I’m not afraid of rough stuff, but I don’t require it. And one of the worst things in the world is somebody who’s not normally into being rough trying to do rough shit with me just ‘cause they think that’s what I want. And that’s weird, and it creeps me out. I like making love too. I like all of it.
And I like what’s naturally happening with the chemistry that’s already in the room. I don’t want to create something that isn’t there, because that’s when it becomes not genuine. There’s enough of that and I would rather be genuine ‘cause I really enjoy sex, and I really enjoy fucking strangers. And we can let that shine through and be beautiful.
XBIZ: So now, how do you split your focus, as far as shoots vs. alternative revenue streams?
Rx: I like all of it. I like to do all of it.
XBIZ: What platforms are you usually on?
Rx: I like Snapchat, because it’s so immediate. And I do a bunch of weird shit. If a guy is staying at my house, we might do little Snapchats like of me jerking him off while I’m driving — not while he’s driving, while I’m driving. I’ll be fucking blowing him every other light. I do shit like that anyway. I’m not going to set up a shoot to do that. I like doing weird shit, and Snapchat is this cool way of showing people what I’m doing anyway. So that’s more fun for me. And if I wanted just the shoots, I would just shoot. I like shooting with companies because I like being booked with people I don’t know.
XBIZ: You’ve performed with quite a few stars by now, male and female.
Rx: Yeah. There’s a few I want more of. But also, I like being pleasantly surprised. There are a lot of people where I started liking him when his dick was inside of me. You know what I mean? You’re just attracted to what you’re attracted to. There’s someone whose name I won’t mention. I remember seeing his name on the call sheet; I Googled his pictures, and I was like, “Aw, fuck. Oh, God.” And then, he was fucking bomb. And I was like, “I fucking loved this little dude.”
And that’s one of the things that’s cool about porn, is that you never know. I would never have fucked that dude, even on Snapchat. I would have never called him and been like, “Hey, I want to fuck you.” So I get to experience shit that I never even knew I wanted. And it’s awesome. People are morally afraid to explore some scenarios, but sexuality is awesome and beautiful.
XBIZ: Yes it is.
Rx: And I don’t judge my fucking sexuality. It comes from somewhere. I’m not responsible for the weird shit that I’m into; I’m responsible for what I do with it and whether or not I hurt people. That’s what I’m responsible for. But I don’t feel bad about any of the weird shit I’m into. Nor should anyone.
XBIZ: So, what was it like winning one of the biggest XBIZ Awards this year, as our Best New Starlet? We’re notoriously hard to win stuff with. It’s very unpredictable, rather than political or the usual suspects.
Rx: My gratitude will never come through with my words. I just hope people know that I’m grateful. But no, it was awesome. That’s what I’ve heard about XBIZ, which I like. I actually heard that about XBIZ. I’ve heard that it probably means more to win an XBIZ Award because it’s more legitimate. But I thought it was super cool. And it was right at the same time that I had a birthday. I closed on a house, won an award and had my birthday, so it was a cool little week. I was like, “Shit, I was fucking homeless seven years ago, and now, I’m a homeowner — and I won an award for my vagina. Life’s cool.” You know what I mean? That’s cool shit. I’m proud of that.
XBIZ: If you have any projects throughout the year, hit us up, we’re here for you.
Rx: Shit yeah. I’ll try not to do anything too weird this year and make you guys look bad.
XBIZ: The last thing we would do, is tell you what to do.
Rx: That’s good. Many men have tried. Everyone’s always trying to put the unicorn in the stall. Don’t put the unicorn in the stall. I’m free; that’s what’s attractive about me. So don’t fucking take it away. First of all, it ain’t gonna work. I’m not interested in being in the fucking stall. But yeah, awards — that’s awesome. I’ve heard stories about people getting a big fucking head when they won an award. So I’m trying to not do that.
XBIZ: It’s always competitive, those categories. And what are your goals for this next year? Doing more of the same or exploring new things?
Rx: I normally don’t plan my life too much because it doesn’t work out anyway when I plan it. So I generally just live my life to the best of my ability every day. That being said, I don’t know if I can work any harder than I did last year. I’m just going to keep working really hard. I didn’t say no to anything other than things I didn’t think were good for my career at the time. I canceled, I think, maybe two shoots. I can’t work any harder.
XBIZ: No, of course not.
Rx: I only don’t work if I absolutely can’t or if I think I’m going to put out a bad product. But other than that, I just started doing anal.
XBIZ: When was that?
Rx: On a contract with MindGeek, with their Brazzers brand. But yeah, my first anal came out not too long ago, and I shot another anal.
XBIZ: So they had you for B/G, and then for anal?
Rx: Yeah. Exciting!
XBIZ: Do you have any other firsts?
Rx: I’ve had a bunch to do. It’s probably not going to happen this year.
XBIZ: Like DP?
Rx: Maybe next year.
XBIZ: You want to float it out?
Rx: I want to be interesting for years.
XBIZ: Yeah, for sure. You don’t have to put a time limit on it.
Rx: The first stuff, like the boy/girl and the boy/boy/girl — that’s stuff I would do anyway. But I’ve never been DP’d. I didn’t do a lot of anal in my life because I had some weird experiences with anal, and I had to get past the trigger point, because I had rape flashbacks when I tried to do anal. I wanted to shoot it, but I didn’t want to be crying.
XBIZ: Do you want to discuss those experiences?
Rx: Yeah, I don’t care. I mean, I’ve been raped more than some people have had sex. So, some stuff triggers it.
XBIZ: During your homeless period or before that?
Rx: Everything before I got clean, basically. But I see this as a profession. And I want to overcome the weird trauma shit that I have.
XBIZ: Sometimes, healing the shadow can be done by going through it.
Rx: Exactly.
XBIZ: Being able to take ownerships of it, saying, “It’s mine now.”
Rx: Exactly. I want to own my trauma. I don’t want to be fucking controlled by it. I don’t want to not do anal just because of some fucking dickhead, but I also don’t want to be crying and having anal flashbacks. So, I’ve pinpointed specific things, like I can’t be hit in the face while there’s somebody in my ass. If that doesn’t happen, I’m usually fine. I love being hit, but not during anal, I guess.
XBIZ: There doesn’t have to be any rhyme or reason to it, necessarily.
Rx: Yeah. So, I think it’s cool to be able to have the opportunity to explore actual deep shit, really intimate stuff, and then be able to share it with the world. You know what I mean? So I want to do it. I like that. But I do want to get into more anal stuff and see if I can do some rough fantasies — and I’m going to find a way. And then, DPs can come later. I’ve never been DP’d. The fans can fuck off; I’m going to do it when I want — when I’m fucking comfortable. I think my agent Mark and I wanted to win Best New Starlet — and I think we were doing certain things because of that goal.
XBIZ: As far as what to choose and what not to choose?
Rx: Yeah, exactly. And now, I can kind of do whatever I fucking want. Now, I can just shoot for everything, and I don’t have to worry about trying to win an award. So, we’ll see. I don’t know what this year is gonna bring. It’s gonna be fucking odd. I’m going to fuck everybody, maybe all at once. My divorce got finalized a few months ago, and I tweeted that I was going to have 3000 men gangbang me for my divorce party.
XBIZ: I think I remember that tweet.
Rx: Everybody’s welcome! Everyone’s invited. That’d be cool.
XBIZ: That’s funny. So, what non-adult things do you do for fun?
Rx: I go to symphonies. I go to classical music concerts.
XBIZ: Like at the Disney Concert Hall or more laid back stuff?
Rx: I don’t really like it there. I go sometimes, but I don’t really like the people there. I like smaller venues with way cooler people.
XBIZ: With real artists?
Rx: Yeah. I feel like the Disney Concert Hall is a bunch of like bourgie L.A. fucks who are only there so that their other bourgie L.A. friends will see them there and think they’re fucking sophisticated. I’m like, “Alright, I’m here to meet serial killers. Who the fuck are you?” But you go to the local ones they have at like high schools and shit, and they’ll have a bunch of old ladies with pink hair. They’re so cool. It’s badass; I like it there. That’s the only thing that makes me feel anything.
XBIZ: Classical music?
Rx: Yeah, I like live classical music. And I’ll be there, fucking crying, listening to Brahms or Tchaikovsky.
XBIZ: That’s awesome.
Rx: I think anal and Vivaldi go together.
XBIZ: How so?
Rx: Vivaldi is like emotional violin. I just did this anal Snapchat thing, and I had Vivaldi playing in the background. And it’s a weird sensation to witness. I’ve seen a bunch of girls playing classical music on the fucking Snapchats, which is cool, but just know that I started it.
XBIZ: You were the first?
Rx: That was me. That was all me. Playing Vivaldi was all me. But it hasn’t been done much. And it’s a weird combination.
XBIZ: The juxtaposition of savagery and elegant or peaceful music?
Rx: I wouldn’t call classical music peaceful. I think it’s psychotic.
XBIZ: Haha, come to think of it, that’s true. A lot of it is.
Rx: But you know, I think it all works. I want to make stuff that’s beautiful.
XBIZ: Every kind of beauty? Nature’s beautiful, but it’s fucking brutal, it’s a murder-fest sometimes.
Rx: I think that being genuine and just letting things be what they are is beautiful. I’m not trying to mold anything into something that’s pretty, that you have to look at.
XBIZ: That’s why all this Snapchat and camming and clips are so huge now: because it’s more real and a kind of intimacy-based content.
Rx: People want to see what’s really fucking happening in your life. You can just Google any girl getting three dicks in her ass, but what they want to see is me doing anal in Del Taco spontaneously. That kind of stuff is interesting. What do I do in my personal life? I’m actually a weird ass, creepy person. I do weird shit in my personal life. They want to see that and I want to tap into the really weird shit. I want to wake something up in people. It can be really traumatic. It could be closure on something ... I’m not going to judge it, even if it’s like Stockholm Syndrome.
XBIZ: It doesn’t have to be a pretty story.
Rx: Yeah, it doesn’t have to be a pretty story to be what it is. That’s what sexuality is to me: I want to explore the things that are fucking weird, that aren’t hurting anybody. It ain’t gonna hurt me, and I’m not hurting anybody new.
XBIZ: Well, you’ve transcended the hurt.
Rx: Yeah, absolutely. I just owned it. All the stuff that other people don’t want to do, I want to do. I want to take the guys that people think are abusive…
XBIZ: …or complicated and evil…
Rx: …yeah, or whatever. And I want to master them. It’s not that hard.
XBIZ: A lot of the stereotypical “bad boys” really aren’t that sophisticated. I love villains and true darkness, like Hannibal and all that shit. High-end villainy.
Rx: I love Hannibal.
XBIZ: Have you ever seen the TV series with Mads Mikkelsen?
Rx: He’s the shit. I love him. He’s fantastic. He made a better Hannibal than even Anthony Hopkins. He totally did.
XBIZ: I agree. That show is just so fucking cool.
Rx: Every time I do anything in life, I think, “What would Hannibal think about this?” I want to be the kind of person that Hannibal would respect. I just became an intensity junkie. I don’t have a lot of feelings, and people want that for whatever reason. But I don’t know if I would think of Hannibal as evil. He’s beautiful.
XBIZ: Vivaldi, anal and Hannibal. I think that about sums things up.
