Today she describes herself as a “witchy cyberpunk vampire and a bratty goth girlfriend from cyberspace,” but Fatal Goth was once a corporate compliance analyst.
She had just received her master’s degree in business with a focus on employment law, had ambitions to become a lawyer and was preparing to seek her juris doctorate when, after careful reflection, she realized she was following a path other people expected her to follow, not the one she wanted for herself.
Among my fans, I’m mostly known for my many forms of BDSM and different power play dynamics, but I also focus on edging, cum play, denial, primal play and vampire play.
In the corporate environments where she worked, she was repeatedly warned against having tattoos or piercings, and informed that she could not wear what she wanted.
“I was told that who I am would never be allowed in a professional setting and that I would have to fit into the mold that society has made for us all,” she remembers.
Feeling very restricted in her creative freedom and unable to fully express herself, she resolved to become her own boss and start doing things her own way. In late 2019, she unshackled herself from her desk job, mustered everything she had learned about business and began camming.
Goth had always been a fetishist and considered it a core component of her identity. Prior to camming, she had to be low-key about it, but after taking the plunge, leaning into that element of herself felt like a natural progression — and a fitting business venture that actually excited her.
Since then, Goth has risen through the ranks, culminating with her being named Best Fetish Cam Model at the 2023 XBIZ Creator Awards. Now, in this Cam Star of the Month interview, she flashes her fangs and fastens tight her spiked collar to share a glimpse inside her venomous cathedral, where her fans worship her in her various incarnations as a switchblade of dominance and submission.
XBIZ: Which fetishes are you especially known for among your fans?
GOTH: I’m mostly known for my many forms of BDSM and different power play dynamics, but I also focus on edging, cum play, denial, primal play and vampire play. Most nights, my fans are denying me orgasms while I’m strapped to a fuck machine and receiving different punishments before being forced to cum. On cam, I’m a switch brat, so it plays well while I am teasing and playing with my viewers as they punish me. It makes for a fun night for everyone and keeps every night fresh and exciting.
XBIZ: How do you approach cultivating a unique brand, visually and personality-wise, with authenticity and passion?
GOTH: My stream is very unique! Everything in my room is tech-heavy with a cyberpunk flair and almost everything is completely tip reactive: the lights, my bubble machine, my fog machine, my fuck machine, my soundboard menu and special sounds for certain members. Fan club members can use a voice, in three languages, to speak out loud in my room for all to hear. There are sex toy bonuses and interactive games, plus various overlay actions entirely controlled by fans and viewers.
I’m always adding new tech and things to my steam. I even implement ideas on the fly when fans or viewers make suggestions. It’s my goal to always make people feel like they’re part of the show and that my stream is for them. All of this interactivity plays perfectly with my personality on cam because I’m very interactive with people; I’m talking to them constantly and I’m always teasing them. They’re teasing me too, since everything that they’re interacting with messes with me in some way, so it all plays together in this perfect show.
XBIZ: What kind of chat goals and interactions do your viewers adore, and what is a typical cam show like?
GOTH: I very rarely have goals. The only time I have goals is when I’m doing collab shows.
A typical cam show usually starts off with me sitting spread-eagle on a fuck machine, with the camera facing down at me. As people start tipping and watch the fuck machine fuck me at different intervals, depending on how much they tip, I start to tease and taunt them about how badly I want to cum. Some people deny me, some people let me cum and some people force me to cum over and over again.
Then there’s some people who don’t let me cum at all! They make me get off the fuck machine and spank me instead, or cover me in hot wax or dunk freezing ice all over me. It really depends on who’s in the room!
I just sit there and poke fun and have fun and every night ends up different. Every night is also a different punishment as a different group of people pick on me or have me pick on them. It’s a nice ebb and flow of control.
XBIZ: How have you grown as a streamer, personally and professionally?
GOTH: When I first started, I would take slow days personally. I needed to learn how to be more patient with myself and with my growth and just get through the hard days. I learned to not let slow days or bad days get me down. I’ve also learned that even though it’s important to have community as a cam model, and have people you can bounce ideas off of and have a group of people you can trust and confide in, you shouldn’t compare yourself to others. Different people are at different levels in their cam career, and you should just focus on where you are and where you are going. And while we’re talking about community, one of the biggest things I learned is to make friends in the industry and keep them close; having friends who are also models is integral to your success, soul and sanity.
XBIZ: Which platforms do you use the most for revenue streams?
GOTH: Currently, I only stream on Chaturbate and I use Onlyfans as my fan site. I do enjoy playing video games and doing IRL streaming, so I was considering starting to do some content on ePlay as well, but at this time it is just an idea. I do have some videos uploaded on ManyVids, and I do sexting on SextPanther as well.
XBIZ: What was it like being named Best Fetish Cam Model at the XBIZ Creator Awards?
GOTH: This was my second year being nominated for XBIZ Best Fetish Cam Model and I was in shock when they called my name. Believe it or not, I have severe stage fright, so going up to accept the award had my insides shaking! When I came down from the stage, I had to sit down and breathe for a second.
I couldn’t believe it. I was so thankful and overwhelmed with joy and excitement. The first thing I did was call my mother to tell her that I won and I was crying on the phone with her right in the middle of the award show! I think back to that moment often and I do feel so thankful to all my friends and fans who believed in me and voted for me.
XBIZ: Talk about your goals for the coming year.
GOTH: I’m going to be working on a few new techie surprises, so be on the lookout for some more fun interactivity on my Chaturbate streams! I’m also going to be working on some fun collabs during the Halloween season. Another idea that I have been mulling over is utilizing a YouTube and ePlay for more expressive creative ideas and endeavors that I’ve been working on. Also, I’m hopefully going to be hitting up some of the expos this coming year — and definitely XBIZ next year!